Friday, October 18, 2024

My Abyss [biogenerated poetry]

 My Abyss


My abyss is shallow

Staring at me

Drawing me in

Sucking me under

Pulling with a weight

That begins in me

And ends anywhere


It pokes at me

Reminding me

To touch my ear

And listen for the sound

The silent echos make

As they pass the barrier

Between me and it


My abyss is on fire 

Like the Cuyahoga River

Murdering the observer

Nietzsche’s superman

Would be incinerated here

To observe this abyss 

is true blindness


My abyss peers through holes

In wrists

Seeking for something to consume

As salt on shadows poses 

only for the damned

We interweave our narratives

With the sand

An hourglass in hand

Can no more tell time

In a sunless world

For an hour dies with the sun

Baking atoms for breakfast

You need a place

To have perspective 


From the perspective of my abyss

You are made of mud

Don’t look from here

This is where monsters are made

In the undifferentiated ether of the ego

Where men become shades and specters

Where souls are burnt away

Leaving only a residue of animal cruelty


My abyss stares into me every day

I do not fear it, but I do respect it

Enough to leave it alone


Wednesday, September 4, 2024

Narcissus' Love Song [biogenerated poetry]

 Narcissus’ Love Song


I thought I made you up inside my head

But now, you’re dead, so all the dice

Roll to a stop

The surface escapes

I am lying in a pool of my own blood

The sky is falling 

Like a shattered mirror

The shards reflecting stars

Collapsing in on me

I thought I made you up inside my head

I thought I might release you

Empty you from your essential heaven

And barricade you with mortar and stone

Before I become you

But if I do we both might disappear


Monday, September 2, 2024

Killing Time [biogenerated poetry]

 Killing Time


Time skitters

Anywhere


Shameful to say

I feel like 

I’m killing time


And sometimes wonder

Why i’m tethered to this world

Myself

I’m

Tethered to time

Returning the favor

Killing me softly

With its song

Running my whole life

Through the threshing wheel

Killing me slowly

With its long tendrils

Running a string down my spine

Killing me gently

Without remorse

I am 

Myself again

Whole again

New again

The sun rises

We join hands

& kill each other

Again


Tuesday, August 27, 2024

A Demoralizing Poem [spoken word, biogenerated]

 A Demoralizing Poem


Show me a demoralizing poem. I’m sick of being inspired. I’ve had just about all the inspiration I can stomach for one lifetime. I want to wallow in something hopeless. Give me death or give me liberty (at least) from flower poems and self-actualization. I want Sylvia Plath to rip my heart out. Show me the depravity of this world. The shocking cruelty of it all. The base nature that can erupt from each and every one of us given the proper circumstances. Show me our ravenous greed. I want truth, not beauty. Those who confuse beauty and truth become fascists. Always appealing to a singular standard. Always reducing everyone to an ideal.


If you’re not familiar, let me welcome you to the truth. The world is filled with passive order followers who will torture and murder on the word of authority. Fuck human nature and anything that glorifies it. Show me some self-loathing to build character. Fuck your confidence. It’s overrated. Wallow in agony and I’ll see your truth. 


Whatever doesn’t kill you

Brings you closer to death

& closer still

We fall into survival processing

Anxiety-driven impulses

That drive up our blood pressure

Leading to heart failure


Wednesday, August 21, 2024

I Love You to Death [biogenerated poem]

 I Love You to Death


When male and female anglerfish mate, the male angelfish latches onto the female and is slowly absorbed into her body until the two form a single bloodstream. 


If I had a womb, I would put you inside of it

Let you fester deep within me

Behold my death, it’s glory casting rivulets

Of blood from your wrists

And me drinking every bit of your thirst

Like a lying enemy who isn’t where he appears

I am in two places at once now

In front of you and behind you

You are suffocating perfectly

In a perfect sympathy 

From which your lips

Purse enigmatically and I

Put my ear in a box until

All of your dreams come true


Monday, August 19, 2024

The Curse [biogenerated poetry]

 The Curse


I am 

piece by piece

to pieces

a piece a part

of me


Yearning to be whole 


Monday, August 12, 2024

The Girl with Imaginary Eyes [biogenerated poetry]

 The Girl with Imaginary Eyes


She couldn’t help

But always be naked

It was in her

To never rhyme

But always reason

Her way out of a rhythm

And when she walked

It was always sideways

Blinking at the starlight


I met her when

The world was still young

The sun had yet to meet the moon

The stars were pulsing 

to the rhythm of the first song

And Night had just been born

And she sputtered starlight

Through her eyes, bright with seeing

To anchor the shame to a far away shore

Untouched as yet by dusk or dawn

We matched rhythms in the twilight

Of undifferentiated energy

And bundled ourselves

Into twisted knots


Saturday, August 10, 2024

Stomach Bug [bio-generated poetry, CW: skat]

 Stomach Bug 


I knew it was over

When I started blowing

dry farts into the toilet


When you have the stomach flu

You must exercise extreme caution

With every fart lest you be doing laundry

To rid your pants of shit

Every fart is a possible landmine of gooey butt sludge

You'll run out of pants if you're not careful

Farts, usually heralding a comfortable satisfied feeling, 

Are now your enemy


Yes, stomach flus can turn once beloved friends into enemies

That is the true evil behind its power

It completely destroys your ability to function

As a social being

Nobody wants to be around a shit pants man

And there’s no telling when that bell’s about to ring

So hunker down shitty fellow

And brace yourself for a lonely night

Of writing obscene poetry

For relief


Tuesday, August 6, 2024

Beware of Narratives [bio-generated poetry]

 Beware of Narratives


Beware of narratives

They arrange the truth to form a fiction

They just want to produce a feeling

Narratives are drugs

To elicit emotions 

In a tactical fashion

Narratives have more agency

Than men

Who fall to the siren song

& the gentle play of emotions

Like musical notes in an orchestra

Levying your allegiance 

Slowly lowering your resistance

Flowing into a melody it lures you

To believe yourself behind until

You’re seeing everything from a single lens

And there you have it

The narrative has more agency

Than the believer


Why do they choose forgetting? [biogenerated haiku]

 Why do they choose forgetting?

All I remember 

Nothing compares to whatever

it takes to forget 

Wednesday, July 31, 2024

Facing the Page [biogenerated poetry]

 Facing the Page


I face the page again

A dire consequence of my obsession

To see something reflected in these lines

That resonates with a reader

I face the page again to connect with myself

Along with others who may vaguely understand

The troubled musings of a liquidated author

Who eats allegories for breakfast

And shits run on sentences in the form of poetry

And cruelly mocks the rules of English grammar

In favor of a discordant melody

Which winds out of time

To its own drumbeat


Tuesday, July 16, 2024

The Disturbing Power of Faith [biogenerated poem]

 The Disturbing Power of Faith


The devastating thing about it was

Just how quickly it came 

in fits of blue-collar rage

It stormed in, hostile and enthusiastic

Filled with the venom of God

Virile in its arrogance

And completely devoid of reason

It built a specter out of fear

Starting with immigrants

Make America Puritan

A white abstraction

Thinly coded in nationalism

Red ties made a noose

Around the future

And self-preservation took an insidious turn

Toward the worst impulses of the ego

The kinds that revel in cruelty


Punishers are of the devil’s party

Functionally speaking, the devil punishes the wicked

Or so the story goes off into a war with heaven 

and a battle for souls


When you operate on Christian nationalism

Even reality is a lie in the hands of a believer

You can believe reality straight into being

This is the ultimate secret understanding

We are the imagination of ourselves

Our lies lay the foundation of the Truth

This is the Language of Eden

This is their ultimate power

Faith is a form of magick

To access it, you must sever logic and reason

Sever caution and nurture certainty

And watch them line up behind

Whichever dog barks the loudest